Exactly one year ago

I was walking my dog this morning when I suddenly remembered this site. Surprisingly enough I made my first post exactly one year ago. I was in such a different place then. The job that I genuinely loved became the most stressful place to be at the time. It made me realize that you can absolutely love a job but hate the workplace. Shortly after that, October 30th to be exact, my wife and I had an epiphany at a bar in Brooklyn called The Charleston. For those of you who don’t know I just happen to be one of the few lucky people, I am married to my best friend.

That day she made me realize that I no longer have to put up with being unhappy every day. Eight shots and two pitchers of beer later I ended up calling my dad whom I hadn’t spoken to in exactly five years.  A week later I realized that this man hasn’t been part of my life for a reason and maybe it should just stay that way for now. That same day I lost my new phone. The person who found it ended up giving my phone back to me. Makes you believe that kind people truly do exist, so thank you again, you kind stranger. I woke up the next day, went to work confronted my boss but I couldn’t pick up and leave. I needed a second plan, which, with the help of my wife I was able to achieve. Within a couple of months, I was in the process of becoming a New York state EMT and started working part-time in the city.

You might be thinking that this is all. That I quit my job, found a better job and life is all nice and smooth again. Well, I left out the best part of it all. As I am sitting here listening to The Goo Goo Dolls – Iris, I am thirty-eight weeks and seven days pregnant. Carrying my wife’s egg via Reciprocal Ivf which I hope to write about soon one day. Maybe tomorrow, maybe next week or maybe a year from now. I do not work as an Emt and I yet have to figure out the rest of the puzzle. One thing I know for sure is that my baby will be here any day. I have never been more certain of anything in my life. Some days are harder than others but I have the most beautiful thing I have ever done to look forward to. Soon enough I will be able to hold him in my arms. I can genuinely say life is much different. I am content with where I am. This past year alone I have lost people I didn’t imagine I ever would but I have gained way more than I lost. I have changed and I am beginning to believe that at least this once, change is good.

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Last day of October

     A couple of days ago I made this blog so I could write about things I thought I knew that I still might not know. In fact, I don’t have a clue what I want this blog to be like or what I want to write about. One thing I know for sure is that I want to learn from my own writing, my own thoughts, and experiences. I want the last day of October to be the first day of something new. Something good.